You know, I don’t usually get nightmares, but lately I’ve been getting one every couple of weeks. Tonight wasn’t so much scary, as it was sad/disheartening.

I was in town with Bambi, and we were walking down the street. These two girls who were stick thin, pretty etc, were walking behind us, and they started mocking the way we were walking (Bambi had on her boots, I had on my black shoes with a heal). At first it was just a joke, but then they started slagging us off. Bambi and I were livid, and going at them, and then we were in my car, and they were in our car, which was parked next to theirs.

They reversed out, and while they did it, they on purpose pushed my car, and the car on the other side of them out of the way, making huge dents in them. They drove off, and Bambi and I were like “lets get outa here”. I drove a way down the block, but pulled over because I was too shocked/shaking to go anywhere. Then Bambi goes to me “You look like you`re handling this really well, I`m gonna go catch up with my workmates, Bye!”and she got out of the car, and left me there. Then a girl from uni went past in her car, and it was all dented, and I realised that it was from the purpose-crash of the two girls. She was crying, and I ran over to her to apologise.

Then I was at the cop shop, and I was trying to give my report on what happened, but I couldn`t because I was crying too much, and I really needed someone to be there with me. I rang Ants on my cellphone, but he was going away for the weekend with Regan and Erik (which is why Amber and I were in town) and he was already in Havlock North (but in my dream, he was about as far away as Levin). He told me that he couldn`t come home, and that I`d have to find someone else to help me. That`s when I started bursting into tears, racking my brain for someone to come and help me. I thought of Kirsten, but she was still in a shit with me”¦ my dream faded and then I woke up, and I was bawling my eyes out. Good thing my real Ampy was there to cuddle me. I felt so empty and alone coming out of that dream. I hope I never feel like that in real life.

Tags: Dreams